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Thursday, February 16th, 2006
12:57 am
Crazy Valentines day
i have no other word to describe my valentines day other than weird. First i have a valentine that i never thought id be friends with let alone out for valentines day with LOL. Then that party after that Oh my God!!!! I had never been to anything like that. It was just crazy, weird and sad at the same time but it could have been worse.

Current Mood: blank
Saturday, December 31st, 2005
12:28 am
Almost a new year!!!
Tomorrow is the party that we'v been waiting on to come for awhile. It was plastered all over peoples journals, and anyone could come. It think it would be so funny if no one actually showed up. I'd laugh my ass off. Chris claims that hes not going to drink that much, i hope their is not a repeat of thanksgiving, or im going be gving him some words. So thats it ill be back tomorrow for the update bye.
Siara

Current Mood: cheerful
Friday, December 23rd, 2005
3:47 am
Im loving it!
Yeah i love Mcdonalds so what LOL!!!

Anyways since i can't go to sleep i figure that i'll write on here. I looked back on all of these journal entries and i realized that i don't complain as much as i used to. I feel pretty damn good about that. Awww little Siara is finally growing up ha ha ha.

Wow it's so weird Christmas is in like 3 days and i havent brought any presents, oh what a procrastinator. It's all good because im going to do it on Christmas eve. I just havent had the time to because i have been working so much because of Christmas being here. Im so excited. Yasmin, Kim, Chris, and mike, and i are going to exchange presents soon. We are going to go over Chris's Christmas day since he's going to be by himself. Im a firm believer in no one should be left alone on the holidays. Hopefully theirs not a repeat of thanksgiving. Yeah that was we R. kellians call a hot mess (my boo's know what im talking about) lol.

Speaking of thanksgiving i have come to the conclusion that sometimes i can get a little crazy. Lets just say when i'm tired hide the lotion and everybody cause im gonna be all over them lol. The other night on the other hand i don't know what was going on i wasn't even drinking but i was acting crazy as hell. I was just so tired that things were just flying out of my mouth. Pinning that guy down was fun huh Yasmin !! Lol. I don't know why i was kissing and hugging Chris i think i felt bad because, i acted like i was gonna kiss him and walked away from him oppss. Opps i did it again ( just call me feffy) Lol. Just think Yasmin that will be a good story to tell people.

But anyway i can't believe it's going to be 2006 that is crazy. Whoa daddy this year went by way fast. Believe me their has been some highlights. But i can honestly say that their has been way more good things then bad. So i guess that i can feel lucky for that.

This year i learned some life lessons. Like you can never get your first love out of your head. Everyday this person will be on your mind and you'll be wondering what they are doing and whats going on with them. I learned that loving someone can be hard not just for you but for the other person. I have learned that sometimes i don't take things seriously, and need to say what im feeling more often. I can honestly say that iam finally doing just that. I have also learned iam a much stronger person then i thought i was. I do have an impact on things and that my opinion does matter. I can say that i kinda feel like iam finding out who i really am and i used to didn't like that person, but now i do. It's a nice feeling!

My bestfriend has been their this whole year to help me along the way. Oh i have missed you so much, im so happy your back. Thanks for listening to me cry because i brought stupid things on myself. Thanks for not getting mad at me for not saying things sooner. Thanks for going to the doctors with me, and staying on the phone with me till all hours of the night. I bet i could call you right now and you'd pick up the phone. Just remember that you are a good person, don't let those "monster ratts" put you down. You are such a talented artist don't let them make you feel like your not. You are such a good person on the end side and on the outside. You deserve good things in your life. Thanks for putting up my computer lol. Thanks for being their for me, i Love you Yasmin and you are apreciated. Best friends fo life baby pie lol ( yeah im being a cheese factory).

Well i guess this is the end for now i hope everyone has a great Christmas and happy new years. Stay Safe people. I love you all

Bye Bye Siara

P.S. sorry this is so long lol

Current Mood: accomplished
Friday, December 16th, 2005
3:04 pm
Can i have a question?
I swear when it comes to guys i seem to just keep picking the wrong ones. I guess you could say that he cheated on me because we hadn't officially broken up. Yay this is the first time i have been cheated on. It's a weird feeling, it kind of feels like i'm numb. I feel like i want to cry but i can't maybe because i'm so angry. I don't know how to deal with this, what do you do? Maybe it's me, maybe i'm doing something that makes me easy to toss away. Iam not garbage i do not deserve to treated like it. So why am i being treated like this. We didn't really see eachother a lot, and we didn't talk on the phone a lot either, and i was the one making an effort. This seriously sucks.

Wow this year is almost over and iam so happy, and i hope next year gets better. If you think about it, i had a pretty bad year to start off with in the relationship department. Let's see i started the year off with a bang when Jeremy broke up with and joined the marineslol that was fun. Then all this shit with he shall not be named last almost all of this year. Now this shit with Rick(yes thats his name and he is a bastard)so now i'm single again. hooray!! Well next year has too be better because, i'll be pissed if it isn't (lol i didn't know what else to say).

Thanks for listening to me whine
Bye, Siara

Current Mood: disappointed
Monday, December 5th, 2005
11:56 am
People mad crazy on here!
Some people are crazy as hell thats all i have to say thanks!!!

Current Mood: calm
Thursday, November 10th, 2005
12:43 am
An Add on
I wasn't finished with the other one so im adding on to this one. But i was talking about how missed Yasmin my heterosexual life partner. I also have been thinking about Shawn lately and what hes been up to, ill probably never here from him again which kind of sucks but he is married. I may sound stupid but i kind of miss him after all that shit that went down. I still can't here thar song "hey Mister" lol i freak out. but i know its over and i shouldn't think about that. I need a boyfriend really bad huh LOL.What brought him up was me going to Texas pretty soon, Isis's sister Yasmine is turing 18 and she wants me to come down for her party. Im gonna go because she going to come and get me and bring me back and i haven't seen him in forever. But i was thinking if i had the chance to see Shawn, if he wanted to see me would I? I don't think i want to answer that. But Isis was like we could go beat his wife's ass Lol. I told her no even though i would love to do just that. But things are different and i guess we can't go back.

love ya,
Siara

Current Mood: content
12:34 am
Super Monkey Testicles!!!
Chris told me to write that!

My pookie pie Yasmin is coming this weekend. Iam just too excited, i miss her.We are supposed to go see Saw 2 but i already know the twist of the movie so she probably won't want to go see that. But lately i Iam at Mikes house now and i really have too pee. Today was the worst day of the year i think. First i woke up to my mohter screaming about the bank taking her money. That stressed me out when she got off the phone she was crying , she looked kind of drained. I started crying too because i've been so stressed lately. Then my mom told me to not be depressed and thats easier said then done but whatever. I stayed home and at around 6:15 i got a call asking if i was coming into work i was like i don't to work. Well apartently i did so i had to go in. To make a long story short i got caught in the rain with no umbrella and none of my friends decided to call me tody, and this is when i need them to.But i got to work and pretty soon i started feeling better and now i feeling really good. Awesome!!! Ok this was long enough and tomorrow i have to go to school.It's more to this day that made it bad but i'm sure i want to talk about it in here.

I have to peee soooo bad but ewww Mikes bathroom LOL. I'll be home soon, and i'll also have a bladder infection LOL. So the day did get better Hoorah!!

Bye

P.S. Ha ha my catergory is automotive again like i have a car he he!
Monday, October 24th, 2005
2:18 pm
hello
Hey i had a few minutes so iam writing in here because iam very bored. Well this weekend was ok yesterday i went to holly's baby shower she's kind of looking preggers now. The food was good but i couldn't finish mines so i brought it home. Other than that i went home and listened to music. Iam so addicted to My Chemical Romance's song "Ghost of You" I must have watched the video about 15 times yesterday and once this morning. Well i gotta go because i want to go on yahoo to play games ha ha.

See ya,
Siara

Current Mood: content
Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
1:41 am
Ok i cryed
Ok so maybe i cried a little, well actually cried a lot. I talked to her about everything and we both cried which is kind of weird. I can't really be mad at anybody it just hurts. You know you consider people to be your friend and they sit there and hide shit from you. I felt like i didn't have any friends except Yasmin and i love the hellout of her but i thought that i had more friends like that. I'm glad we talked and i kind of feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I told her everything and i was so angry and i let it show. I'm still angry but what can i do. It's all good when everything comes out i'll put what i really feel on here if you haven't already guessed.
Bye bye,
Siara

Current Mood: pissed off
Sunday, October 16th, 2005
8:39 pm
Insensitive
Insensitive

How do you cool your lips
After a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat
After the body bliss?
How you turn your eyes
From a romantic glare?
How do you block the sound of a voice
You'd know anywhere?

Well, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home,
By the vagueness in your eyes,
Your casual goodbyes,
By the chill in your embrace,
The expression on your face,
Told me maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive... insensitive... insensitive...

How do you numb your skin
After the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush?
How do you free your soul
After you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart that's crying
To fall in love again?

Oh, you probably won't remember me,
It's probably ancient history.
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you.
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch,
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive...

Well, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home,
By the vagueness in your eyes,
Your casual goodbyes,
By the chill in your embrace,
The expression on your face,
Told me maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive... insensitive... insensitive.

Are you mad? hell the fuck yes i'm mad, and why shouldn't i be. Is that enough anger for you, or do you really want to see me get mad. But mostly you could say that iam disappointed. The person who is the closest to me tells me all the time that i'am to nice to people. Well i guess iam. I cannot just go up to someone and say how i really feel. I just sit their and let things boil over until it is too late. Oh my god i want to scream!!!ahsjshdshfjkshgjflghdhjhajhj!!!! Like that shit with Shawn, hell yes i was mad but i didn't know how to react to it. Also with the most recent events. What do i do, do i cry ? Do i take it out on everyone else? All that will do is make me feel even more stupid then i already feel. You can call that me screaming. Im not going to be like that anymore, all iam going to say is SHUT THE FUCK UP!! That's the best advice i think that i've gotten today, lol. But now that its all over iam going to move on because thats what everyone else is doing.

So peace out Everyone.

Siara

Current Mood: accomplished
Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
12:20 pm
hey you
Hey i have to write this quick because the bus is coming in like ten mins. Ahh i don't want to go to work it's going to be way boring.

So to update everybody, some crazy things have happened in the month of September. Like my kailani turned 2 aww i want to cry (she so bad). Other then that something else crazy happened, Shawn's wife called me. She left a message on my phone i was so shocked that i made a mistake and hung up the phone ooopps. It was crazy cause she told him that he couldn't talk to me, if i were her i would have beat his ass!!! But anyway Yasmin called him and his wife called her back talking shit, and my cooter told the bitch off it was funny. I can't finish this i have to go ill come back later and continue.

Adiosa Princessa

I'll you with a quote

"You know Siara, that guy that freed the slaves George Lincoln"
-Tyron Harris-
Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
12:18 pm
hello im bored!!!
Here sre some lyrics

Motorcycle Drive By" third eye blind baby

Summer time and the wind is blowing, Outside in lower Chelsea.
And I don't know what I'm doing in this city,
The sun is always in my eyes,
it crashes through the windows, And I'm sleeping on the couch,
When I came to visit you,
That's when I knew, I could never have you,
I knew that before you did,
Still I'm feeling stupid,
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive.
Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by,
Cigarette ash flies in your eyes, And you don't mind, And you smile,
And say the world doesn't fit with you.
I don't believe you, You're so serene.
Careening through the universe, Your axis on a tilt, Guiltless and free,
I hope you take a piece of me with you,
And there's things I'd like to do that you don't believe in,
I would like to build something, You know it's never going to happen,
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive,
And there's this burning, There is this burning.
Where's the soul. I want to know, New York City is evil.
The surface is everything, but I could never do that,
Someone would see through that.
And this will be the last time, We'll be friends again.
I'll get over you and you'll wonder, Who I am.
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive,
I go home to the coast. It starts to rain, I paddle out, On the water Alone,
Taste the salt and taste the pain. I'm not thinking of you again,
Summer dies and swells rise, The sun goes down in my eyes, See this rolling wave, Darkly coming to take me, Home,
And I never been so alone, And I've never been so alive.

adiosa princessa's

Current Mood: bored
Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
11:40 am
Iam so bored
I feel like falling asleep right now while sitting down. I would be so set if you could eat and sleep at the same time lol. I don't know what else to right in here so im gonna go.

P.S.
I wanna give a shout out to chilly cheese fries (oh the memories) i miss you!!!

bye bye

Current Mood: bored
Thursday, August 11th, 2005
3:48 pm
Hello Hello !!!
So I went to school and i found that we start school August 26th that is some shite iam so mad at that.That is like not even 2 weeks away, and don't ebven know what day that is. So theirs nothing new with just going over that things house everyday ( yeah im talking about mike, he should be crawling on broken glass and asking for my forgiveness LOl! your so lucky that im nice )and playing games with Yasmin, Kim, and the resident drunk Chris.

Everybody who really knows me knows what happens this month so don't get mad at me if i say something mean im just a little hurt inside, im fragile. I have do things this month to fill up my time so i won't think about it, so im working like a dog and it's helping.But i can't write anymore im getting tired. Here's the update. bye bye

Sorry i don't have a quote

Current Mood: confused
Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
8:55 am
Collide
The dawn is breaking...
A light shining through...
You're barely waking...
And I'm tangled up in you. (yeah)

I'm open, you're closed.
Where I'll follow you'll go.
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again.

Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills my mind,
I somehow found you and I collide.

I'm quiet, you know,
You make a first impression.
I've found I’m scared to know,
I'm always on your mind.

Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the stars refuse to shine.
Out of the back you fall in time
Somehow find you and I collide...

Don't stop here...
I lost my place...
I'm close behind...

Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide.
You finally find, you and I collide.
You finally find, you and I collide.

I love this song
Friday, April 1st, 2005
3:28 pm
Hey
I have some stuff to say to someone, and im not sure if i should say them, so if that person is still out their, make themselves known. I feel like i need to say some stuff but im afraid too. I promise its nothing bad.

Thanks
(you know who you are)

thanks people

Current Mood: okay
Thursday, March 24th, 2005
1:14 pm
Whoa i need to update
Well school is still boring if anybody wanted to know. Oh but let me tell you what happened with my monolgue. It was so disgusting (it really wasn't disgusting i just like saying the word disgusting) i had a panic attack on the stage, but atleast i wasn't embarassed. I had to sit down and wait for a few other people to go. When i finally did go it was fine. It was really hard because i had to cry onstage, and i could not do it, i couldn't find anything to cry about. But it was ok because i got a B+ on the assignment. Im doing pretty well in school also so you can be proud of me. Holla

But with work, still boring too, but a few weeks ago went had the mall bowling tournament. We went bowling before the tournament ( we as in me, justine, and mike) and i was the gutter ball queen it was disgusting. When we went to work they were telling everybody about how bad i was and everything. The truth was i wasn't really trying i was just having fun. So when the tournament came they weren't laughing when i beat both their asses (booyah)man it was funny. It was a combination of good luck and me and my skills holla back. So now we are in a league and i go bowling like 3 times a week justine is like way addicted. last friday josh was drinking at the alley, and he got a little tipsy. Oh my god he was like a touchy feely drunk, he was trying to dance with us and pick us up, i was like gross. Mike also had something to drink he was in the back singing it was so funny.

Oh im moving to, i hate moving. So yeah i think that about it, if i think of anything else ill comeback. Bye bye people
heres a little song

"i want chicken, i want liver, meow mix, meow mix please deliver"
we all know where thats from

Current Mood: good
Thursday, March 17th, 2005
2:57 pm
Ooo la la la!!!
i just wanted to say hi!!!

Current Mood: im too busy to write
Friday, February 18th, 2005
10:19 pm
Boo who im sick
Today i had a class and i was feeling so nasty in it, but it was just a stomache. Now my whole body hurts and i can't eat anything im gonna go to the doctor tomorrow. When i went to the office to tell Michael, because he was supposed to take me to lunch, he was mad that i was late. Oh well i didn't go i just went home and went to sleep and now im feeling even more sick. Damnit i hate being sick but hopefully i won't have to work on sunday lol.

Oh in class we watched A CLOCKWORK ORANGE it was pretty good, but the title did not tie into to the movie, well i didn't see it tie into the movie. It was a pretty graphic movie, too many boobs (and i should know, look at mines lol). Im gonna go now laters.

ill come back when i feel better bye,bye.

ill leave with a song

"teacher, teacher, floating down the Delaware, chewing on her underware, couldn't afford another pair, 10 days later eaten bye a polar bear, thats how the polar bear died."
-BIG BULLY-

Current Mood: sick
12:01 am
Dirt off ya shoulders
I feel so much better now,thanks Cooter #2
bye bye people

ill leave with a quote
"what the hells diversity"
"i may be wrong, but i believe that diversity was an old old wooden ship that was used in the civil war era"
"i don't think that network would be worried about an old wooden ship,Ron, but nice try"
-Anchor Man-

Current Mood: relaxed
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